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[May. 27th, 2006|01:10 am] |
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fare thee well my bright star
i watched your taillights blaze into nothingness
but you were long gone before i ever got to you
before you blazed past this address
and now i think of having loved and having lost
but never know what it's like to never love
who can say what's better and my heart's become the cost
a mere token of a brighter jewel sent from above
fare thee well my bright star
the vanity of youth the color of your eyes
and maybe if i'd fanned the blazing fire of your day-to-day
or if i'd been older i'd been wise
too thick the heat of those long summer evenings
for a cool evening i began to yearn
but you could only feed upon the things which feed a fire
waiting to see if i would burn
fare thee well my bright star
it was a brief brilliant miracle dive
that which i looked up to and i clung to for dear life
had to burn itself up just to make itself alive
and i caught you then in your moment of glory
your last dramatic scene against a night sky stage
with a memory so clear that it's as if you're still before me
my once in a lifetime star of an age
so fare thee well my bright star
last night the tongues of fire circled me around
and this strange season of pain will come to pass
when the healing hands of autumn cool me down |
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| My daughter is dead. |
[Apr. 22nd, 2006|10:20 pm] |
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On March 24th, 2006, my daughter, Harriet Emma, gave up her struggle with life. She would have been two months old on April 9th. Her official cause of death was complications relating to PDA (Patent Ductus Arteriosus). I feel so lost without her. It's funny how I could spent my whole life without her, but now that she's gone, I can't remember how. |
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| She's a month old... |
[Mar. 10th, 2006|08:04 pm] |
Harriet Emma was born on February 9th, 2006, at 9:11 PM. Born over 3 months early, she was 10 and a half inches long and 1 pound, 2 ounces.
Update 3/3/06:
She is up to one pound, five ounces, but she will need to be at LEAST six pounds before she will be brought home. Recently, Hallie was diagnosed with a condition known as PDA, which causes blood to divert away from the lungs. Apparently, PDA is common in micropreemies such as Hallie. Otherwise, Hallie is doing as well as can be expected. She isn't breathing or sucking on her own, but hopefully she will be soon!
Update 10/3/06:
One month old!
Hallie is up to one pound, ten ounces! Five ounces in two weeks is, I think, excellent progress. There isn't too much else to update on, she's gaining ounces and has made it a month.
I just thought i could update you since I haven't in such a long time. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2006|01:47 pm] |
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Delaney tried to make her grand escape on Monday morning. Managed to stop labor, however, I'm on strict bedrest and pre-term labor watch. Ugh, I hate it. She's GOTTA stay in there. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 30th, 2005|12:18 am] |
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I'm almost dying here.
Green apple lifesavers. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 29th, 2005|11:42 pm] |
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I haven't done a real update in such a long time.
I guess I haven't had anything BIG to post about. I used to be such an active, eloquent blogger.
So here's the update, for those who feel like they've missed out on something:
Our Conner-boy is now eighteen months old. He's speaking in short two-to-three word sentences, and still loves teh boobage. :) He also enjoys graham crackers, running around naked, and climbing on Tucker. He's smart and so funny.
I'm 20 weeks pregnant now, I will be 21 weeks on New Years Day. The baby is still a GIRL, and we are calling her Delaney Emma. Conner already loves her, and gives my belly kisses and says "Wav Lalaney." :) |
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